6 days ago
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At the airport slowly dying cause this is taking forever
1 week ago
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I PASSED IV SOLUTIONS

I seriously thought I messed up on the mg and g. BUT I DIDN’T. 

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1 week ago
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So I am visiting my family within a week and it is kinda scary. Time flew by so quickly and I am not even sure how I feel around them.. It’s kinda weird that it has been three years. I’m really excited to see them though. I miss them alot. I still haven’t even bought stuff for moving out yet. I bought most but I need to buy a little more. My mom decided to take off and help me out on move in day. It is hard for her to take off so I am excited she made it happen. :) I finally got what I wanted. I thought I would be happy like my life would be fulfilled you know? But I don’t have that feeling… I feel like something is missing and I honestly don’t even know what that is. It’s been bothering me for a while now. oh well~

2 weeks ago
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I tried my hardest. I did everything I thought could make you want me. But you still don’t and you never will. 

2 weeks ago
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What I expect

I don’t even know what I expect in the future. The future can hold so many things and its terrifying. I have to start over again. Forget my past and grow as a person. It’s a weird feeling. Waiting to see what really happens. Will I make it into nursing school? Will I end up with a different degree? Who will I meet? Will I be happy? They are all answered by the actions I do from now. And right now I am not even sure if I am doing enough. I’m scared. I want to be more open to people. I don’t open up to much girls. And it’s always been hard for me since I have always been a tomboy. So I want to at least do that much. I also want to be great friends with my roomate. I want to communicate with her and not have any issues. The packing right now is a nightmare. I did not even think that it would be such a hassle to dorm. But the little things I need to buy I did not ever think I would never need to get. I feel like college is a time where everyone is going to change. I have changed some. And I guess what I am more terrified of the fact the change I will see in myself. Will I change for the better or worst? I guess I just have to wait till I find out. And until then I will sleep. study. repeat.

2 weeks ago
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Really don't care
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I really don’t care

2 weeks ago
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This is the cake I made for him for tomorrow ^^ I hope he enjoys it. We are planning to go to a spa, swimming, and go eat Korean food. I’m excited. :3 I haven’t really hung out with him since summer started.. I am hoping it’s not awkward. But if it is he always knows how to make it not awkward. :) ate a lot of frosting and cake today :0 oops I couldn’t help it. We had a nice talk yesterday. It’s like things never changed ^^ he seems happier which makes me happy.

2 weeks ago
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Summer so far has had it’s ups and downs. The down side is that I got rejected again. And I feel okay. I thought I would be sad but I am not. I don’t think I could ever be friends with him again. Which is that sad part. I deleted the blog we had together because no matter how much I wanted to be friends I just couldn’t. It’s too hard. I was too late. He made his choice. And I guess I am trying to start fresh and forget he ever happened. I just want to be happy again. When I do find it I won’t let it go. I promise I will hang onto it and make the right decisions. I’m human and I make mistakes. Even if I didn’t make those mistakes, he would have never chosen me anyway. But on the good side of summer I have been spending time with the people I haven’t hung out in a while. And It’s been a nice change. I recently saw fireworks with one of my closest guy friends and it’s an experience I would never forget. Seiji’s birthday is tomorrow and I have something planned for him that day ^^ I realized he is honestly the only person that has stuck by me. He is an amazing friend. He has been there for everything and I just stopped talking to him. I think I did it for hoping to get the other guy back. But I realized that is so childish. There’s a reason why things happen and you know what it makes people stronger. :3 I’m making a cake for him today. Fingers cross it actually comes out decent